nimitzbrood (nimitzbrood) wrote,

In brightest day...

September 26, 2007 9:55 AM

Not sure where things are going again. I’ve got that feeling that something bad is going to happen again but I can’t put my finger on it. It’s not as strong as say...when my cousin died or when we were hit by a major bill but it’s there and waiting. *shrug* I’ll just have to be ready for anything I guess.

And that’s something I’ve noticed too - the universe almost always hits with something bad by using the nice shiny days to lull you into a false sense of security. Unfortunately that means that while things are nice you _better_ be planning for when things get bad.

So today...

Even though I have enough money in the bank I’m going to make a concerted effort to sell off some of my stuff.

Even though things are a little cleaner at home I’m going to work to make them considerably cleaner.

Even though the bills are all paid up I’m going to work on overpaying them.

Even though things are ok right now at work I’m going to work to make them better.

Why? Because I can’t afford to be unprepared for when the universe hits me again. And it _will_ hit me’s just waiting for the right moment.

So after I finish my breakfast out and pick up the glue sticks my wife needs for my daughter I will go home and spray down the bathroom shower with Works, start putting clothes away, scrub the shower and clean the sink, vacuum the stairs and sweep the foyer, then start on organizing the clutter in the living room so I can empty the kitchen and mop it. While it’s drying I’ll do laundry. If I have time I’ll try and work on my lawn tractor. In the afternoon I’ll deliver my dad’s bike back to him.

A full day. And I fully expect my wife will call me asking if I will pick up our daughter since I’m delivering my dad’s bike to him today. The answer is no because I still have more things to do. It looks like it’s going to be sunny so I should be able to pick up mulch today so we can do that back area this weekend.

I’m confident that I can at least get half that list done by the end of today. Since I have no proper sense of time it has a way of getting away from me. For instance it’s now 10:24 a.m. and I left the house around 9:45 a.m to go to the restaurant. But to my internal time-clock I have only been at the restaurant for about 15 minutes tops. That’s what? A 3:1 ratio of real time versus perceived time? And sometimes it’s not even that consistent. It’s like living life in a river of peanut butter that hasn’t been stirred all the way through. Sometimes you move through the oily spaces quickly and other times the peanut butter slows you to a crawl.

Worse yet the only reason I know what time has passed at all is because there’s a clock in the upper right corner of my screen! If that weren’t there I’d probably continue typing away on this keyboard for hours on end.

This gets me into more trouble than you can possibly imagine. Unfortunately if I do something like wear a watch I will, and have, become focused on time to the extreme. And I’ll _still_ be late for things because I think I have more time than I do.

Yet another thing I have to work on for my own self-improvement...
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