Been away from work for a week on vacation. Needless to say it was only a partial rest.
I actually managed to hand out candy this year versus past Halloweens. That was pretty cool in and of itself even if I didn’t get to decorating.
Regardless my wife and daughter were both home last Monday so I didn’t get a chance to do anything and it threw my entire schedule for the week off. Worse yet I can’t blame them really because my daughter was sick enough to throw up.
So that kind of set me off for the rest of the week. I wanted to get a good start while people weren’t home but instead I ended up with a lukewarm kind of push-off for the week.
I did manage to get some of the things I needed to do done. I managed to box up most of my fiction paperbacks for storage. I need to focus on technical stuff for a while and honestly I need the space those books are taking up in my office. And I absolutely need to get that office, as well as the rest of the house, organized before Thanksgiving because we’re throwing the gathering for my side of the family again this year.
I managed to buy the mulch for the back yard but haven’t put it down yet. It’s supposed to be cold and rainy this week but I’ll try and get it done before the week’s out regardless. I’m _way_ behind in certain things outside and this just needs to get done regardless of if someone is going to help me with it or not.
Finally dealt with some of the feelings about what happened to my cousin over my vacation. I think i’ve let some of what I’ve been feeling go. And that’s truly a good thing. I still will never forgive myself for not being able to stop what happened but I think I can stop flogging myself about it.
I do understand one thing from this last week though. I figured out what is keeping me from using my family “gifts”. Fear. Plain and simple fear. Fear of becoming one of those weird people who everybody looks at like they have two heads, fear of not being able to use those “gifts” when I truly need them, fear of a great many things.
Now that I know though I can deal with the problem. Fear is something that can be taken care of. It may take me time but I’ll eventually beat this. Just like I’ve beaten all the other fears in my life.
Still digging around to make time to work on the webcomic script. That’s why I need to get my office taken care of. I’ve ordered the replacement power supply for my G5 iMac so that’ll be taken care of very soon. The upshot of all this is that I’ve been out of that office far too long. I need to get back in there because that’s where my creative space is. It’s pretty hard for me to write or learn to draw effectively with the notebook leaning on the corner of the couch. I need that space back. Hopefully I can get that done this week but likely it’ll be next week.
Haven’t even started on the bike yet. Next week I need to order the wheel bearings and stuff for it. At least I can get the front wheel and speedometer drive repaired. And the tail light swap-out thankfully won’t take that long either. The big one is paint. Painting will take me quite some time and I need to do some patch and dent work before that happens. I really don’t want to be painting that bike when I should be riding it.
So many things to do...